Sunday, February 27, 2005
95 questions if you're BORED |
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| So, what's your name? | Lim Khee Xuan |
| Age? | 14 |
| Race/ethnicity? | Chinese |
| Thinking right now? | tune of Crazy In Love cos its like playing rite now? |
| Well if it's nothing, should we begin? | Yup yup |
| On relationships... |
| Anyway...crush? | -ed by Jeffrey? No... |
| Got one? | Nopes... |
| Are you going to tell me their name? | Dun haf how to tell? |
| Are you single? | Yea.... |
| Are you taken? | Unfortunately no.. Who wans me? Bid starting from 1 buck per hr... =P |
| Why are you single if you are? | Cos i am ugly and unattractive... |
| If you're taken, who's the lucky guy/girl? | dunno... Carrie Underwood!!! |
| Do you think they're lucky to have you? | Duh no... |
| How long have you liked said person? | since last thurs when i saw her sing on American iDol? |
| Are you glad this section is over? | yupyupx... |
| Yes? | yes... |
| No? | yes... |
| On favourites... |
| What's your favourite song(s)? | Lots man... Any song frm Kelly Clarkson, American iDol, basically anything that's 'in'.. |
| Movie? | Lilo and stitch, scary movie 3, white chicks, 13 going on 30?? the quite recent DVDs lor... |
| Game? | neopets!!! i dun play games kayz... |
| Website? | Blogs mostly... |
| Food? | anything fried or spicy - those that can make my pimples grow in exponential rate like Malthusian's theory |
| Survey? | this one? *choke choke* |
| Survey maker? *points at self* | *points at you* |
| Hair color? | Blonde lar... then can ego cos blondes are stupider den me... |
| CD album? | i dun buy CDs.. mayb thankful lor... |
| Band? | westlife? s.h.e? dunno larz... |
| Artist? | KELLY CLARKSON!!! |
| Program of choice (as in computer program)? | MSN messenger.. can't live, if living is without it... |
| This or that... |
| Windows or Mac? | Windows |
| Death or life? | Life |
| Cheese or porridge? | Porridge |
| Britney or Christina...or neither? | Christina!!! |
| Lord of the Rings or Harry potter (ONE CHOICE ONLY) | Harry Potter |
| Legolas or Aragorn? | What are these? |
| Arwen or Eowyn? | *dittos previous answer* |
| Fantasy or Reality? | Fantasy. |
| Religion or atheism? | Religion. |
| Would you wanna die of... |
| murder or old age | Murder |
| drive by or starvation? | Drive By |
| In your sleep or in a tar pit? | Sleep |
| What if... |
| If you could go back in time and change anything, what would you do? | I'd not join the euphonium section nor VE cut my recent armani hairstyle nor associate with pple i hafto socially obligate myself to. |
| The sky was yellow? | It's raining pee! Hallelujah! It's raining pee! |
| If you could take up any language what would you learn? | Japanese still lar.. i'm still likin it... |
| you were a movie? What would you be? | I wanna be marcus in white chicks cos its so cool to be like paris-hilton and rich! haha.. |
| Lovey dovey stuff.. |
| Are you of age? | duh no... |
| Did you read the rating? | yea.. |
| How many years till your legal? | 7 i guess |
| Favourite fantasy? | dun tell u.... |
| Do you dream of your crush? | no crush who to dream abt? |
| Have you had sex yet? | nopes.... |
| Did you type Virgin if you haven't? Type it now if you are. | VIRGIN! |
| Do you lie about your age to people? | nopes.. wat for? |
| How many partners have you had? | none.... |
| Been to third base yet? | dun get it... wats that? |
| All the way? | wth? |
| With who? | no one? |
| Are you going to tell me? | nopes? |
| Tired of this yet? | yea... |
| First thing you think of... |
| Mauve | a name of a man? |
| gay | all arnd me |
| legolas | LOTR? |
| cheese | mozarella!! |
| Alyssa | girl's name... |
| Johnny | american nerd name... |
| Justin | timberlake/guarini!!! |
| Josh | groban!! - his voice rocks!! |
| Orlando | bloom!!! he's damn shuai i tink... |
| Shane | is he the westlife lead singer? nice voice dude! |
| Finish the sentence |
| If it ain't broke | it will still remain as it is? |
| The grass is greener | on the other side? |
| What's love | but not infatuation? |
| You are what you | eat. |
| Battle of the bands (in no particular pairing) |
| Muse or Modest mouse? | never heard of it.. |
| The cure or Blink 182? | neither |
| Pink Floyd or Guns and Roses? | roses |
| Avril Lavigne or Hilary Duff (yes you have to choose ONE haha) | Hilary duff i guess |
| Alexisonfire or Linkin park? | dun like both but i'll choose LP |
| Franz Ferdinand or staind? | neitherz... |
| Slipknot or rancid? | who r they? |
| Afi or Three days grace? | blah blah i feel so ignorant... |
| Sugarcult or Hoobastank? | Hoobastank.. |
| Dashboard confessional or Story of the year? | Huh? |
| Nsync or Backstreet boys? | BSB.... |
| I'm done...happy? | very indeed.. |
| Are you sure? BYE! | sure.. |
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2/27/2005 08:49:00 AM
k.. just came back frm my granny hse... kinda tired now.. but nvrtheless, can't disappoint my blog readers thus i decided to blog!...
firstly, my apologies for my angsty post is the bottom half of my previous blog entry about band, specifically about terence lar... cos that day i was still feelin that particular segregation.. but the band practice on that day (thurs), he was talking more to me lar and the close senior-junior relationship is like back lor.. but i still cannot stand him when he's in his gay mode.. haha.. cos fat and gay isnt a good combination.. and i aint just talking abt terence alone.
k anywayz, my expenditure in BS is damn alot lor!!! like abt 50 -60 bucks a week! that's like twice of my usual weekly allowance!!! gosh mama miranda!!!1 i must save.. luckily, my parents bought me those super 9-in-1 pack of cup noodles to replenish my stomach/abdomen for my supper.. haha...
bahh... ytd's x country was damn sian lor... its like at 2.30 we were supposed to assemble dere and it was quite hot and squeezy and we started the actual run at 4pm lor! it's like wth.. it was damn disorganised and everyone was scrambling everywhere... lol. but i saw mong, bernard and alfred there ahaha... so during the run, at first it was ok lar.. then we (sua,lerong, jianyi..) overtook this bunch of stringed-in-one-row, presumably sec 3 mainstreamers that shouted to us not to run and then they saw me and exclaimed, 'ohh.. it's that singer frm VE.' then he sang a falsetto note and he shouted 'gay' damn loudly and all his friends also shouted the same thing lor... its like they r such (zuo4 ai4 pi4 gu3 dong4) - effing assholes in chinese... haha i am like calling everyone pi gu dong now and starting this fab lor... so cool... =3 =3 =3
then today had band.... quite ok lar... but seriously i am still quite zibei cos i dint play 30% of the piece cos i suddenly was unable to pitch my high notes and my nerves got in the way. that's just an excuse. the reason is because i suck. knvm, kunwon told me not to lower myself too much but wth, i am just pissed with myself lor.. everyone was congratulating one another after playing and i was like damn zibei.. and everyone was damn meng and were sweating after playing lor.. but i dint.. what does that mean? u shld noe..
i really do hope, like wat the indian bird-picking lot tells me that my 'difficulties will vanish in 7 days' which ends tomorrow... haii... shldnt be THAT zibei.. whee... my new armani hairstyle seriously is damn unpopular lor.. the barber say i got alot of pimples so cut short short lol... nvm, it will eventually grow back anywayz...
loll... so here i am, blogging quite late at nite and i wanna slp soon... haha had fun today smsing daniel, jy and ashley and chatting wif marcus.. his pics are seriously owange lor... esp. the kelly clarkson signatures are damn nice.. =P
Signing off,
KX
2/27/2005 12:08:00 AM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
hmmm... i'm at my school's library now... bio = no periods wat... haha damn shuang.. ahha.. ashley beside me now.. anyway,
this wk is kinda fun lor.. cos its like i got back my results - good and bad.. haha... err... i screwed up for english and humans i tink... my geog got like C5 and my history got E8! it's like i've never failed history before lorz.. my worst was like 50%? bahh..
look on the bright side - jy got the same mark as me.. haha.. and also half of my class got worse than me.. lerong have 4/20 and all.. budden sua has 14/20!! it's wth!!! sighz... i suck sooo much in IH this term lor... praying hard that my geog core can pull my score up.. despite the fact that i prolly got the first 6-m question wrong cos i anyhow churn up the Indian plate (non-existent plate - the real one was called Indo-australian plate) collided with the Eurasian plate to cause the earthquake in Killari.. when killari is nowhere near the plate boundaries of both plates.. its like wah lao lorz.....
blah blah... i am so goin to get my highest MSG ever lor... approx. 2.3-2.5.. my highest record was 2.13 when i was sec 1 term 2... but that 2.13 still gave me a 2nd in class... haha sua is going to get first in class this term i think.. he prolly will haf like A for english and IH - the 2 subjects that everyone flunked but his chem (c5) will be like pulling him down a lil.. hee hee... i tink i MIGHT haf a chance to be on par with either yam or yong lin... yong lin screwed up his english and history more than me... all counts to geog core le... but anywayz, shant be too meng lar.. evryone is so going to screw up this term anywayz...
bahh.. now tok abt boarding school le... haha damn damn fun fun! cos its like now got no more tests already wat.. so damn slacky.. but i dint play with so i was damn sian.. but at least better than studying like mad dogs rite?... jeffrey is opening up more and more now... he claims that he doesn't seduce people loll.. then taiboon and i winked at each other haha... ok shall keep all the things he does and my interpretations to myself.. bahh.. you'll see someday.. er ok... and my motorola phone is so freakin screwed cos i thot i could use kaimeng's charger but his charger is like not compatible with my phone's as the HOLE is not big enough! haha... k stop being horny... then that's like sooo bad cos i cannot sms nice nice people like ben and jy... haha..
haha but i am very happy in BS in a sense.. its like i am more or less settled down... it's like every morning is so routine, when jeffrey went off for running, i woke up at 6.10-6.15 and wake yufeng and lerong up after brushing my teeth. then after waking up, they go brush teeth and i go bathe so the 3 of us can set off together in time... lol.. i still stick on my habit to bathe every morning.. me clean... they dirty... i dun eat breakfast...
haha then come back everyday at abt 6.30-7.00 then haf dinner, bathe and 'study' lor.. but in fact, i'm just talking alot to ashley and calvin.. haha nowadays i talk more to ashley cos he's so fun!! haha.. cos both of us dun haf bio so sth we snoop off to the canteen and talk and talk lor... then during study time, he'd come down to our study room and we'll talk somemore..
oh ya, calvin didnt sth very bad this monday. he lied to the doctor (vintu) that he has nausea so he got MC to skip his lit and geog tests cos he dint study.. and its not the first time he did that lor... this guy's really getting from bad to worse.. the worst thing is that he dusen realise his mistake and kept having this idea that he did wat he had to do and what he did was right!!! sigh... wonder if he would still keep his golden badge on his chest if any teacher found out abt it..
and also, yong lin's out of iCouncil.. i tink he's damn unhappy but i tink the rest of the councillors must be elated or sth.. haha... oh ya, the exCO list thingo came out lor... i am only happy for sua yam and tingwei cos i voted for them... terence is like shock shock horror cos its like very lil people from my company voted for him cos he's a fat tracker from sec 2 cohort and my impression of him was when he wore a lanyard/ water bottle dangling arnd his neck that made him look so spoilt and n00bish!!!
okokokokok... can u believe it? VE sang 'working on the railroad' for assembly for all the lvls.. and i had to be in it to share the throwing face of that very bunch... today was the last day (fortunately) and we sounded bad cos the tenor ones werent loud enough.. that means i failed lar... cos my tone sucks and everything... it's like evryone said that they could only hear me from T1, darrell from t2 and jianyi/hewlett frm bass throut the song.. wonder if that was a compliment.. but seriously, i am quite confident of my projection skills.... in VE that is.. not competitve against people from other choirs lar.. but in VE, i'm quite sure that i am one of the better ones... even mr yong said that i have a very focus tone... and the rest have airy tones... jeffrey's sore throat aint helping him alot.. he's screeching cos his range suddenly became like pin yan's. seriously.. his sore throat is his first sign of voice breaking.
that was wat happened to me too.. he's going t2 soon... whoopee? wateverz... VE sucks lor.. seriously... the teacher i/c is so notorious, yong cf is 88% gay and everything... i tink jianyi and darrell and I shld form our own VE and screw our songs up... haha... the most ideal thing is like for kun won and calvin to join VE again.. both of them put in t2 and they can overpower the whole VE like siao.. bad that's impossible... kun won has nice tone in his voice... and cal's expressions are ownage... but i dun like his pronunciation and articulation of notes...his range is seriously damn zai.. but i still dun quite like his voice - refer to the blog post abt the karaoke outing... =P
bahh.. why am i writing all this? its not goin to be posted anywayz... i wannabe 3rd in class...!! loll
band now is damn sian.. kun won's turning so cynical.. sometimes i dunno whether to laff with him or dao him in a sense that i know he's zai in eupho but that doesn't mean that he has to use sarcasm to shoot me down does he? bleargh.. but seriously lor.. i tink the existence of kun won is for me to have a taste of my own medicine... its like i also mock alot of people and that's my retribution or sth.. why do i suck sooo much in eupho??? but seriously, i dun really practice alot and i keep using diff techniques.. its like i slack... i come for 'individuals' for like 30mins and went off cos kun won was saying things to me like, 'khee xuan, you'll have to practice your tone first.. you can't even sound nice on a simple F.' or things like, 'khee xuan can you don't play the soft parts that loud?' and when i cant sight read the treble notes that fast (eupho notes are in base clefs btw), he was like looking at me and saying, 'can i hear sth from you or watever?' then i damn bu shuang lor.. and i was like dao and quiet for the whole band practice... and terence also, i am trying to shun him away cos i tink he's segregating me cos i suck so much in eupho...
its like i now feel that i don't disappoint him anyway... i'll just let him think that he's a bad SL for all i care.. cos for this whole month, i've gradually turned into an outcast in my section.. i dun really meddle with my sec 2's affairs (cos bob still has this sucky attitude and his playing is still worse than mine) and jiunn lin is still okkay.. ivan is still taht nerdy and all but at least he still attempt to train me... terence and kun won.. sigh... we arent even on talking terms anymore lor.. sadly or not sadly.. i tink it's kinda cool actually.. it's like i am lonely no doubt, esp when terence keeps talking kun won cos he's damn qiang and kunwon can double tongue... and i suck so much.. terence dint even help me in anyway nowadays.. call himself a section leader.. hope kw doesn't follow his footsteps... even tho there's a high chance that he will...
but luckily, i still have good friends like sean. and mayb rujun.... they still talk to me and everything.. esp. sean cos he's really my good friend... unlike some other people... and there's this mood swing of mine when after every band prac i'll be depressed.. no surprises today cos i predict the same thing will happen.. i always hold back my tears.. even word kun won said pierces my heart like nth... every sight of terence made me swallow my regurgitated vomit... every concerned question of sean's made my tears flow out of my eyes.. it's that emotional... i hate myself for hating band, and for sucking so much... but what can i dO? i aint even enthu to begin with.. i can just rant and complain and rant somemore.. let people hate me.. i am turning unpopular day by day.. i tink everyone's starting to be pissed of by this ungrown spoilt child.. its like who knows, people have this impressions of me as 'the boy that never grows up - irritating asshole that won't shut up.' i care abt that. but what can i do? quit SYF? that's escapism.. i'm escaping from kw, eupho section and sth i cant do.. i am a failure if i do that.. but if i joined SYF and band doesnt get gold, i am also a failure.. its like i'm facing a lose-lose situation and i can't turn back... bleargh.. why can the pple in VE be as good as those in band? why can its system of rule be as good as band's? why cant the teacher i/c be ms lam? this is sooo sian cos i've been ranting abt band ever since the first day of school... and after like 1-2 mths.. i still haven't imprved much.. i always throw face in band cos after kw played his damn nice concert tuning note, its always my turn to be niaoed at and all.. sigh wateverz...
i am facing stress. everyone is. but i rant about it. why? cos i wanna be free from all this. does ranting help? no. then why do i still rant? so that i can get it out of my chest. i suck in everything. so what if i haf ok results? so what i can sign better than the majority who are tone deaf? so what? i am a egocentric pi gu dong... seriously. my personality suck.. imagine if i have to be in the body of siheng.. i'll haf no friends at all.. no one would like me cos i haf bad personality.. i am ego, straightforward and boastful. who likes this kind of people? no one. bye.
Signing off,
KX
2/24/2005 01:11:00 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
blah.. i'm at my cousin's hse now for dinner and all.. so i shall type my whole wk in a short post.. kay, the first day was quite enthu.. cos i was slping with 'okkay' people in the same room as me - namely yufeng, lerong and jeffrey... they r quite ok lar... at least i aint slping wif those dorky mainstream BSPers in our school... phewz... and also most of the other iSparkians are bunking in the same level as well.. except for those non-BSPers... that is everyone that is sucky in 3N except ashley larz...
so first day after bein enthu for a while.. trying to get to sleep seemed to be real hard... i just tossed and turned, tried counting sheeps and everything but all oso no use... i tink same applies to the other 3 of my roomates... they were also having trouble sleeping as well... so everyone dint slp on that day...
monday - everyone was too exhausted in evrything... i almost slept in the first period cos laurang wasnt in school at that time - she was smart enough to haf MC... the first day was a surreal blur lar.. then after that i went for jap, which i quite enjoyed it cos LUE SENSEI rocks like watever... oh ya, then i switched my owange motorola hp with another old model of nokia cos my motorola charger was screwed.. that means no mp3 listenin and no nice games to play for the rest of the stay le.. bleargh
then arrived back at BS then meng physics and chem... everyone was meng-ing until like 12-1 or sth.. den evryone was damn tired and went to slp lor..
then of cos lar, everyone screwed up for physics and we only had one a1 - which is weiquan, which brings me to the point that some people can be so complacent that even when the teacher is teaching days before a test, they can actually play a laptop or play with the graphic calculator.. yea, albeit the fact that those two were extremely bright in those subjects, but they shldnt be so proud as to NOT listen to the class right? i mean, if they r so smart, ask them to go to RI or some institution wat....
wateverz... anyway... haha i just got back my math test ytd, 34!!! yippee! and sua said my chem is A1... hope so... yay!... abt the BS.. everything's ok lar... except for the argument part on thurs, but it's over now... sigh... wonder why people would be susceptible to act cuteness... is lard that lacking in countries like china and mayb in singapore? hai.. better keep this to myself.. i dowan to be gossipy and bitchy anymore... do watever you wan.. i dun give a damn.. i shall keep my comments to myself and wat u did to myself.. but u must noe, that i know what you did. i do.
Signing off,
KX
2/19/2005 07:48:00 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
*puts video recorder in front*
wave! wave!
*testing testing*
*k its working. start!*
hmm 2.5 hrs left before assembling at boarding school.. it's like time passes so fast... i was still playing with my 3yr old cute cousin ytd and now i am packing for my boarding school...
sigh got not much to say lar.. i haf quite low expectations cos i will b sharing a small room with 3 other mainstreamers and i despise them cos if any of them are from the republic of china, they r goin to get it from me.. (prolly cos they r so much smarter than me)
err.. one month of independence.. one month of life without pa and ma.. wonder if it's goin to be enjoyable or torturing.. luckily i can call them every nite and talk to them.. i'm resisting the urge to tear now..
actually i am alone at home now, cos all my relatives came just now and now they transferred to another cousin's hse and i decided not to go cos i had work to do and things to pack.. so before setting off, my mom gave me a hug in case she dint come back to fetch me to BS cos she might be playing mahjong... my dad will be that is..
quite sad lor.. alone for 1 month is quite a long time seriously.. no going online for 1 mth.. no one to send me home from third lang every monday and wednesday.. its goin to be so different.. hope the friends staying in the room as me are nice.. or dun despise me cos i am a 'gay' iSparkian, singing so girlishly in humans nite 2004.. sigh dun bother raking up the past.. the present me is less 'gay'. rite.
bringing my handphone charger with me so i can play mp3s while studying and sms chat with people that are not in BS like ben chow, jy and maybe jianyi.. depends lor.. hope they don't find me disturbing that is.
bahh.. so many things to bring to BS... i changed from a normal travel bag to a bigger travel bag.. i just took out a black pulley luggage cos the travel bags are too small.. considering 1 mth stay.. a luggage is needed... trying to calm myself down now... i aint excited, i am turning a lil homesick.. its like studying overseas and all.. will miss parents and online friends...
it's like from 5 day CNY of enjoyment, mahjong and all.. tmr will be the start of stressful tests periods, boring lessons and all.. a total change of mood and all.. but heck, i get to see my friends in school again.. so that's prolly the only consolation...
umm.. with that, i just wanted to say, Dad and Mom, I love you.
*clicks the video recorder*
*black screen*
2/13/2005 05:26:00 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
oh yesterday was ben's bday.. haha, my cousins just told me that the short form for 'yesterday' is 'ytd'.. k dint noe that.. anyway, his 'party' was half fun and half awkward... it's like the mixture of both views in my prev post.. but i am glad that i aint segregated lar.. but ben sorta was..
ok so at 8.37am, i arrived at the 6th ave bus stop and met rachel. in case you all dunno, rachel is ben's and jy's real real close friend and i met her twice before, once at wisma and the other at KAP. lol.. she's like a sporty gal and all, so we took a bus to KAP after saying hi.. its like kinda awkward at first, cos we were desperately trying to break the ice and all.. but it's like we still dint really talk alot on the bus lar.. then she told me how she got close to ben and jy since last yr and all then we started to tok more... then we went to the bengawan solo at KAP and it wasnt open...
so we went to cold storage to buy makeshift cake but the salesgirl was SLEEPING!! so we were like shouting 'hello! hello!' to wake her up but to no avail.. then her fellow colleague shouted sth like, 'MINA!!! or some other malay maid-like name' then she woke up and served us.. so we bought this small chocolate cake and went back to the bus stop to wait for jy..
so jy came in this nice nike white plain shirt and wore this poserish, yet typical 77th street necklace thingo which ben bought for his xmas gift.. haha, he said he wore it just to show it to ben lor.. or else very paiseh.. haha.. then we sat on bus to ben's hse and more awkward... but nvrmindz, we then stepped into ben's hse (condo at signature park) and ashley and ben greeted jy and I, den we popped into ben's room and saw his NYPS friend, dennis from RI and gerald from ACSI. haha dennis is like this nice-looking guy that is a lil taller than ashley and gerald is that not-that-nice looking guy taller than jy.. haha.. then rachel came with sherry, her close close friend and the segregation became obvious. the girls and ben were at the living room and the boys were in ben's room talking... and guanhui and i were stuck in the corridor talking lor.. so cham rite? loll
then drinks was served by ben's nice nice mom and ashley actually broke a glass cup! its like omgomgomg.. haha ashley was like the klutz of the day, and his blurness was kinda amplified that day and all.. but he's still so funny and friendly hahah... so after clearing up, and nice ben's mom angbao giving, we set off to KAP to buy chips... ben's mom actually gave ben 50 bucks for the shopping spree lor.. so good.. my mom wouldnt even give me 5 bucks lor.. haha and den we bought nice big chocolate cake and dennis was in charge of the cake lorhz and we set off to east coast...
we took from KAP to dhoby ghaut and i stood on the bus with ashley, ezra, sherry and rachel.. oh ya, yujay and ezra joined in on our journey cos they were LATE! k and ashley was like making us laff cos he kept singing off key and all.. but and he's like sing until very funny and entertaining.. budden ezra was like starting to be attention seeking and flirting with the gals by cracking damn freaking corny jokes and be animated and all.. but this was just the beginning lorz..
so on the bus ride from dhoby ghaut to East coast, i sat beside jy and we talked quite alot cos he's so much fun.. and he asked me stupid questions like, 'hey, do you think this necklace looks nice if i have a cleavage *keks a cleavage from his chest muscles* or just normal?' haha.. then i was like laffing like mad lor cos its so silly and shitty lame.. then he asked the same question to dennis and gerald sitting in front of us.. then we talked somemore and we arrived there then we walk walk walk and met up with joey. joey is this sec 2 gal, from northland secondary school and her background is damn depressing and all.. ben told me at cold storage to be a kind and friendly to her lor and i tried to be la.. she's really pitiful lor... but she's seriously strong.. it's like she can still withstand all her obstacles happening at her tender age with strong determination and its damn admirable.. the only problem is.. she's
166cm! yea, that's like 8cm taller den me and how was i supposed to be her 'guardian angel'? haha...
ok so i DID try to talk to her but she was like kinda reluctant cos its the first time we met.. so ashley and I were acting funny to her larz.. like we '1-2-3!' and turn arnd and said HIIIIII to joey and then she, rachel and sherry laffed.. haha.. and its fun lor.. cos the walk from that bus stop to our picnic place was quite far.. haha..
so we arrived at our spot.. ashley took out his 'prepared' grndsheet.. it could only fit like 6 pple sitting? and we have like ten? so its like we just put our bags on the grndsheet and starting eating the chips and drinking the cans of drinks... then we cut the cake cos we dint want the coated milk choco of the cake to melt.. but it did so its kinda eeky... so ben blowed his bday candles, made his wish and we had the cake.. its like the gals dint want to eat cos i tink they r on diet or sth.. and for some reason, we actually forgot to buy plastic utensils!! we only had cake, so jy and i tore an unused paper plate and used it to scoop the cake and eat lor.. so innovative rite? that's why we were in innovation programme last yr.. haha.. then for like 20mins after, dennis, gerald and jy were like bored cos they are like hypersporty and they went to buy a ball and they played soccer...
so i took out my poker cards and we decided to play winking murderer and jy joined us.. so play play.. laff laff for like 15 mins then sian diao.. then its like everyone is like sian and don't feel like doing anything... so ashley and i tried to turn the tables by suggesting playing zhong ji mi ma and we played lor.. the forfeit was like stuffing mini-oreos and chips and sotong crackers into zapple, plain water and grapeade.. then it was like a damn er concoction cos after 5 mins, the oreo and chips and crackers were like turgid and bloated like and the surrounding 'juice' looked like mud or sewage.. damn disgusting.... so after some losers drank that nasty concoction (i am not a loser kayz) we decided to rent bicycles and cycle..
budden ben and joey dint want to cycle so jy and I just went to the bicylce shop and we decided to rent a tandem - a 2-person bicycle larz... then i used my ez link card as deposit... haha jy's ez link card is damn hilarious lor.. his pic sooo funny and guai4.. shhhh.. dun tell any1 kay? and subsequently, sherry and rachel got a tandem too despite the fact that rachel dint want to share it with rachel cos sherry can't steer a bike! ashley and dennis and guanhui and gerald got a mountain bike each for themselves and ezra rented rollerskates...
so jy sat at the front and i at the back and we were like cycling and talking and all.. then we saw ezra trying to flirt with the girls again, especially with sherry cos rachel isnt one that allows herself to be cheaply flirted.. haha, then jy was like bitching about how attention seeking and flirty ezra was lor.. he was like 'ezra is sucha BBB and ADD!!!' BBB- big (dunno-wat) bastard, and ADD - attn despo disorder and he was like scold scold curse curse curse and all.. haha and ezra fell down flat on his face cos he tried to jump over a hump to impress the girls and he was like always side by side with them lor... so shameless horz... haha.. then after that jy kept slacking and made me pedal hard hard cos he put his legs on the bike and dint pedal... then i meng until very fast and after he meng very fast and finally both of us meng to overtake ashley and gerald lor.. all my work and effort kay? cos according to jy's MSN nick, 'the strength of sth lies in the people at the back', literally i was at the back so the overtaking of ashley and gerald is all thanks to me!! haha. very fun and can train the legs... haha.. then we cycled back to ben and joey that side and talk for a while...
then everyone came back cos its obvious that ben was kinda sad and mayb a lil left out lar... so rachel and I were like trying to get ben involved in cycling and all but no use.. then jy was like 'kheexuan says his legs damn pain after cycling for a while.. haha he so weak rite kx?' haha then he winked at me and i said 'yea' but ben still dint want to cycle.. and the atmosphere was suddenly so tensed cos gerald, the acsi guy was like bu shuang or sth and he wanted to play soccer or continue cycling and all..
then i be good guy again and i tried to involve everyone in a captain's ball game and ashley and i chose our teams la.. but no one was like enthu lor despite my 'try to be higher pitch' shouting and joey oso dint want to play captains ball so she told ben that she wants to take a walk... so ben and I went after her cos ben's her only friend then and i was her 'guardian angel' haha... and the 3 of us sat on a bench nearby, feeling the nice sea breeze and i took some nice pics of the sea and the park.. it's like the water is cleaner lor.. last time it was like brown and dirty... now its nicer... and the rest continued their cycling, leaving dennis alone to guard our bags and chips...
then ben, joey and i were like talking abt friends, and everything lar... then ben said about how devastated he would be if he dint invite joey and i cos he would be like more left out cos the 'nanyang' effect is working out... the effect is like this, ben's good friends jy and dennis will be real insensitive to ben's feelings when gerald is present cos they will talk and talk and unwittingly leave ben out and make him feel sad... then rachel has sherry and lame pple like yujay will mix with guanhui and casanovas like ezra will prolly flirt with the gals... that leaves only joey and I to talk to him lor.. and we talked abt someother stuff which i forgot cos the breeze is so nice.. haha joey was like desperate for us to play our game cos she dint want us to sit with her, as in to be segregated from the pack just bcos of her cos she'll feel guilty..
so after talking a lil bit, i suggested that we go to the sea rock thing, the rock in the middle of the sea that u can see in the marianne chong book... ok its called breakwater but nvm, so the 3 of us went to the sandy beach and joey took a stick and wrote 'Happy 15th birthday ben!' on the sand... that's like uberly sweet!! and ben took his badminton racket and wrote JOEY on the sand hahah.... then after that joey suggested that we write things that we want to forget on the sand nearer to the waves so they can wash ur sorrows off but we decided not to lor.. let nature take its course i tink.. haha.. then ben wrote 'kx' on the sand. then he added 'is my friend!! =)' and then he changed it to 'joey & kx are my friends! =)' hahah that's like so sweet too lor.. i was really touched at that time...
then its like a surreal moment to reflect on everything lar.. we went to the breakwater on sat down there together and talked more... then i took more pics.. haha.. and ben wanted me to take pics of the 3 of us using my phone but our heads were too big hahaha... then at that time we felt so much like writing frenz4eva and so on the rocks cos we saw pple using liquid paper to write 'jason loves some gal' and the date and all.. and its like a damn sentimental thing for me lor.. like imprinting ur friendship in a physical way... but we dint la...
then we decide to go back so that poor dennis can go cycle with the others lor.. and on the way, ben told me about his 4 best friends from NYPS lar... rachel, ashley, dennis and someone else i dunno lor.. and it's like kinda emotional and all.. and joey and i were just listening lor.. then we went back and saw dennis packing all the chips together and drinks together.. put bags in one place.. folded grndsheet and all... woah.. he was damn organised lor.. haha zai.. a well-deserved RI-ian i should say... haha.. then its like when joey sat down on the table, dennis and I simultaneously offered her a drink.. dennis poured zapple into a cup for her and i took out a chrysanthemum packet drink and gave to her.. haha, then dennis say 'drink both of them k?'... loll... and dennis took the extra bike and went off with jy, ashley and gerald...
so thruout that time, ben and i played big 2 and joey just wanted to look at us play but not play the game itself.. haha.. and i turned on my mp3 player on my phone and ben and i were singing 'i believe', 'nvr had a dream come thru' and all.. haha quite fun lor.. cos for some reason, ben and i always win alternately and always have 3 '2's everytime... its like so freaky but so fun lorz... so after a while we dint play liao lor and it was time the nyps boy clique came back...
then jy sat beside me and we talked somemore.... blah blah and we were ranting abt how ezra was damn attn seeking and wherever the gals were, he'd be there and all... and some1 said something abt ezra and yujay were going to 'take care' of the gals and we were both laffing at the dirty thot lar.. and i was like, 'jy, quick! call and save rachel!' to make fun of him lorh... NOT FUNNY.. haha k, then the gals came back, and so did yujay and ezra.. then suddenly i saw guanhui and both jy and i laffed cos we totally forgot abt guanhui's existence!!! haha he was like omnipresent cos he dint say anything ... very bad hor... he's actually so insignificant like adam and rebecca in amazing race lor!!! haha
then after that we returned our bikes, then tok somemore and then we packed up and zao... ben led us to the bus stop and we took our bus and bade him goodbye... then on the bus, where everyone else was on except ben, yujay and guanhui, i am joey sat on a 3 seater on the extreme sides, rach and sherry on 3 seaters together with ezra one seat beside them and ezra was doing it again... then the other 4 boys were like toking abt how attn seeking ezra was and i tink all of them hated ezra or sth.. but rachel still dint seem to be subdued by ezra's flirting ability... sherry was actually laffing at all ezra's lame jokes and corny actions lor.. even joey felt that ezra was lame..
so at marina promenade or sth.. all of them (living arnd bukit timah area) alighted and took 171 lor.. and we bade goodbye and all.. and dennis is like soo friendly cos he actually patted on my head and said goodbye to joey and i.. haha... dint expect that cos i thot that he was kinda stranger with us.. oh ya, and he asked ben for our emails lor.. so friendly rite.. haha jy has enemy to vie for the 'friendly' title hahah... k and joey and I were toking abt her daily life and all... she's kinda lonely lar.. but she's damn sporty and all.. i gotta know more abt her in a sense lorz...
then we both took mrt and i departed one stop after at dhoby ghaut and we exchanged no.s and i went to my cousin's hse.. then on the ride we smsed quite alot and all an i finally arrived my cousin's hse at like 5.45pm and then bathe and watch TV until 8pm and we went to another cousin's hse and we had dinner and played mahjong and blackjack.. then i stayed at his hse and we played more mahjong when we woke up.. haha i lost like 3-5 bucks lorz... and then we went to another cousins hse from teck whye to tampines.. long journey but we made it and we played more mahjong and had simple dinner and parted... i reached home FINALLY at like 9.00 and i spent 1.5 hrs blogging abt this whole thing so blogger better make sure this get posted. kthx..
Signing off,
KX
2/12/2005 09:00:00 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
err.. just came back from my aunt's hse (2nd aunt that is) received more angbaos today! yayayay! haha.. anywayz, just stone down there, doing nth, trying to revise for geog core cos i brought by marianne chong book therefore in case i needed it and it served its purpose..
hmm i'm going to revamp my mp3 phone playlist soon.. the songs are sooo boring and all.. sigh... watever.. and i am going to ben's party tmr! yay! haha... got nice nice nice nice pple like ben (duh), jy, yam, ashley, rachel and all and some other NYPS pple lar... some sherry girl, which squeals when ben shows her my pic... bleargh.. i tink she'll haf a big shock when she sees me tmr cos i am so freakin ugly wif all my pimples and all.. wateverz..
since i dunno where ben lives (haha call myself his good friend), i'm going to meet rachel at 6th ave bus stop at abt 9 or watever, then we go KAP and meet up with jy to big ownage cake and take bus to ben's hse bus stop to meet sherry and we step into ben's hse and give 2 mouldy oranges and she give us ang bao and we be happy... and spend whole day at his hse and at east coast and haf lotsa lotsa fun! - that's the optimistic view...
pessimistic view - meet up with rachel at 9am... very awkward so never speak a word to her.. meet up with jy.. then kana segregated.. then buy cake and meet sherry.. sherry shocked by my ugly face so no interaction at all.. den go ben's hse - see his parents and give oranges... then they give me mouldier ones back with nothing red made up of paper with legal tender inside... then spend the whole day kana segregated cos the nyps clump together and ben's p1-3 frenz clump together...
loll.. oh ya, and i won $5.05 from my cousins yesterday in mahjong and cards.. i played mahjong with the adults and won another 7 bucks.. yay... i not that suay now.. woo-hoo... k must sleep
OR cook instant noodles and watch amazing race until late late then sleep and be tired for the bdae bash tmr... i prefer the latter but heck... going to my motherside aunt's hse tmr! going to win more money from my poor cousins... haha =P greedy evil old me...
Signing off,
KX
2/10/2005 11:04:00 PM
oh ya, i chatted quite a while with kuang li last nite.. *shock shock gasp gasp* and yea, he's kinda fun to talk with when his fetish hormones doesnt work up.. Yea and we talked abt how lonely he is every cny cos he only celebrates with his mom - his relatives are all at china, aussie and america... zai manx... anyway, he told me that he only receive one angbao from his mom every year.. then i was like so haolian cos i hf like 30-40 plus every year.. budden he said that in his angbao, it contains $888!!! and i was like omfg, cos all the money in all my red packets are worth like half of wat he has in one packet? then i was like frikkin envious and all haha.. the rich-poor gap is widening so much in 'top' schools like HCI.
and today, for those who lived in the desert of kahalari/kalahari (whichever), or was stuck in the stone mould of the terracota army in china, today is lunar new year. of cos, i woke up early at 10am then get angbaos from parents den rush off to fatherside grandma's hse for lunch and red packet receiving... then i watched xiaolin sth (watever the cartoon name is - but the lil monk very cute) on kids central then we meng to my momside grandma's hse.. oh ya, my mom's interview to be a teacher was successful.. as usual, each teacher are meant to teach two subjects.. her first one was mathematics. (nth surprising..) her second subject was....
english lit!!! omgomgomgomg!!! for someone that can't pronounce 'stupid' and can't spell 'expect', this is definitely a big big challenge to her.. but anywayz, i suck at lit oso so i shant comment abt her.. hmmm.. mayb it's becos i inherited the poor english and lit skills from her thats why i am so lan in these subjects.. boo her...
then wait for cousins t0 come. cousins came. we started off with blackjack with bets of measly 10-20 cents.. no kick.. converted game to mahjong.. i win alot but its like we play kinda small so not much kick too.. but in 10 games i won at least 6-7 so i aint that bad after all.. then steamboat dinner.. eat sufficiently full then meng mahjong again... more income and then we finally ended off with blackjack and 'lao yu sheng' and watch amazing race from 11-11.45pm then everyone go home... I just finished watching today's american idol 1st elimination.. no comments... can i be better than a few of them? mayb?
NOT!
bleargh so exhausted now.. but i am so tempted to eat the chicken abalone instant noodles in the kitchen but i am too bloated to eat and i am too tired to cook... sigh... nitez nitez nitez...
Signing off,
KX
2/10/2005 01:07:00 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Hmm.. CNY Eve celebrations in school.. it's seriously damn sian.. even with darrell and jeffrey and tingwei and nigel at my side sitting, but the programme and acoustics ruined everything... Haha... It's really unsustainable interesting, I think lam poh ling must be crying now cos everyone was so unenthu during the singing session!... and i hate my voice more cos my range doesn't suit the 'he xin nian' range.. its too high and low in any octave i can sing... bleargh..
Oh ya... then after CO performance, the curtain actually ripped in front of Mr. Hon's eyes!!! haha i was like shocked cos the tear was damn obvious lor.. haha damn funny and all... the repair shld be damn ex.. but nvrmindz... oh ya, and the students frm the internation school are sooo poor thing.. cos they sang this korean song thingo, and the soloist started off pitch totally.. cos i dun tink she could hear herself and started one clash note above the actual piano music... sad... she's also crying now... basically the whole event unfortunately is screwed up lar.. so sad...
Yea, then took bus back to rosyth lor.. with zhang and lerong.. oh ya, met terence waiting outside the bandrm after the whole event.. its like nowadays i never tok to terence anymore.. i just quietly practice the eupho mysef... its always kun won that toks to terence.. i am like segregated again... its not just today, its like since last last week.. not saying that i adore terence's company.. but its just so freaking sian and depressing to be alone all the time... its like if the barbas in charmed were to killl me, he'd use my fear of loneliness to hurt me.. and it sucks... i can almost feel that death is calling me, figuratively that is... bleargh whatever.. kun won is too qiang in his euphonium skills... i am just yet another sidekick. or maybe less significant than that.. what makes me think that I am so special?
back to rosyth! it's like i see that school everyday and i just turn my head towards my right now at this moment and I can see the canteen... Nothing much significant seriously.. it's just meeting those 'old' 'friends'.. saw bingwen and the other RIans.. Hmm.. I finally knew the reason why i found yongquan so familiar.. cos he look so much like bingwen.. kinda short and bespectacled with that cute/funny face thingo... but yongquan is friendlier la... bingwen is soo much quieter than usual.. cos mayb its bcos they despise HCIans or we've lost contact for so long until we have nth to tok abt..
then stone there for a while and maolin came and we talked lor.. hmm.. maolin looks sooo much skinnier now cos his face is soo much sharper now... then he's like the only RI-ian that talks to me like normally.. the rest just dao me.. mayb that's the reason why i dint go for teacher's day last yr... its is at that particular place where my fear is more prominent....
then siti and salima and jane and rachel came! haha i missed siti so much! then we hugged and its like she's so fashionable now.. she looks real pretty in her like maroon shirt and jeans.. very nice... mayb i really forgot abt her since dunno when la.. but she's like still so fun and all... except that she's so quiet today cos she says that she's so tired but i tink she's still fun and all and we still talk so its cool! haha... then salima looks so beautiful too in her cheongsam thingo and high heels.. she has long hair till her shoulders... haha nice change! haha and we still talk alot like always and alll.. AJ is still as fun as ever.. except that i am abt as tall as her now! yippee..
but we clumped together with jon heng and a few other people and talk for like one hr then they decided to go shopping but i was too tired so i went home and slept until 5 and went for my reunion dinner.. nth much.. the fake abalone tastes nicer than the real one hahaha....
hmmm.. waiting for rat race to start... watched it once only... may the CNY mark a change in my life... sth to turn myself into wat i yearn to be or achieve.. please.
Signing off,
KX
2/08/2005 09:11:00 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
I feel so much like crying now.. I seriously feel so lost.. Dunno if i want jianyi to forgive more or to change my mindset abt what's happening now... It's like a whirl.. All of us are stuck in this whirlwind... Things are at a standstill, yearning for a turning point to make life different. Is this a test for our currently omnipresent friendship? I wonder... Is this a test on how supportive I am as a friend? I guess I failed it... I can never be a true friend... I can be a relatively good entertainer and company.. But when people want to confide in me, think again.. With jeffrey, I leaked secrets. With jianyi, I hurt his feelings. I really am confused and disappointment in my weakness in the friendship aspect. I want to have good friends but are they there for me when I need them? Are my current company even called my good friends? Should I take a risk, take a chance, make a change and blend into a new environment? Should I call Sean to confide and cry out loud? Should I call jianyi and make him more pissed? Should I call unemotive Sua and Jeffrey so they can laff at my woes and sorrows? I really don't know...
I know its all my fault.. Like I am murdering everyone around me.. In the homepage of my blog, u can see all my 'targets'.. They are going to be killed by me soon... Soon enough... I will unwillingly hurt them one by one... Spiritually that is...
Am I really that likeable as I think I am? that popular? that fun to be with? all the qualities of a good friend? i guess not...
I truthfully do not know why I am writing this, its just an outpour of my hidden feelings... Jianyi won't respond when he reads it. He doesn't care anyway...
Others will see this as crap and dun give a fucking damn... I just sweared sorry... But i am so frikin pissed right now...
I need pills to soothe me.. I hope tmr's outing with siti and salima turns out well.. I am lost.. I have no one to fall back on... No one to rely on...
Sorry if i sound real depressed, cos that's prolly I am... CNY is 2 days later i dun feel anything at all... ben's party sorta lifts me a lil... but depressional gravity pulls it down again..
there r lots of things in life to look forward to... even more so of those things for us to reflect back on and be sorry for ourselves...
but then again, I wasn't really livin.. I never lived, I never lived, before your love.
2/07/2005 11:21:00 PM
sigh... i said myself that i can accept it... but in actual fact, i still can't...
he's rite.. i make a fuss out of it, i rant and rant when he finds it not overboard..
he must be fuming and pissed now... and he tries to be apathetic to me now...
i will prove the title rite shld i dun care.. but we seriously need to cool down and
tok some day...
i hate myself... for bein insensitive and nosey...
i hate myself... for being hyprocritical..
i dun even know if i am wrong or if i should apologise...
i hate myself at this moment... i dunno y... cos i am such a hypocrite in the affairs
of love..
i can't handle this...
ignorance is bliss.. it's been proven for once...
better not know than know and rant about it.. that's true..
i hate my hypocritical self...
i hate it...
2/07/2005 10:14:00 PM
Today is a bad today so I shall keep my mouth shut about it.. Lessons were crap, yea including my chinese test and blah blah.. 3rd lang sux too..
Hmm.. Mayb the only thing worth mentioning is that Yam made 2 cards for yangwz and sun peng and I bought 2 cards for ben and nigel.. But i gave 3 cards to jy and asked him to pass arnd for people to write their bday notes for ben and nigel... den i ask him to choose and the reason i bought 3 cos 3 sell for 2 bucks so i buy lor.. quite cute.. =P
Then we meng write bday wishes for ben and nigel and all... my words were smudged!! bleargh.. and jy/yam gave the nice cup and black sheep soft toy to ben already with card... nigel's pencil case gift will be given tomorrow and yam and i are giving sun peng his card and gift too.. haha, i actually asked siyuan and xiongfan to write sth for sun peng lor.. i tink sun peng noes sth fishy is going on la, he's just pretending not to know.. loll...
i stand corrected abt my feelings yesterday.. dun ask me which... dun ask me why... some of us shld noe the reason... just when i thot the release of the infactuation was over, the aftermaths just began... i am still in the state of confusion.. seriously..
look, i haf this small circle of close friends or my usual company i'd say - jianyi, taiboon, benchow, darrell, sua yu and jeffrey. half or 50% are socially unacceptable.. u get wat i mean... i often wondered if i made the correct choice - to be in the immature 'clique' and allsorts.. yep, the prev 2 yrs were fun... i aint sure the next 2 are going to be and the future forecasts are kinda pessimistic..
its as if history is repeating itself, on different forms.
i rest my case.
Signing off,
KX
2/07/2005 09:04:00 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Today was kinda an alrite day... Not much of
Sunday Blues today.. Cos I woke up at like 11am today and slacked till 1pm before I had my lunch, which was delectable duck mee soup. Then i started studying for chinese. The sheng2 ci2 was real simple, together with yangwz's zaoju notes, studying was never that easy and i memorised most of them in like 15mins.
Then slacked and sing sing sing like diva/popstar/average singer/william hung that shitty mainstream joker for like 15 mins and started memorising the 3rd poem i missed in one of those chinese periods cos i had to prepare for debate.. turned out that i memorised that poem in like 5mins.. cool and the ming ren ming ju too... all are relatively okkay...
Anyway, I finished my history essay (whee!!!) and I chatted with darrell for a long time.. He's a good chatter seriously.. Cos firstly he understands every subtle feeling that I can't cos of my simplicity (a good word to replace stupidity and insensitivity) and these are some quotes from him that is very consoling to me:
Darrell: i sometimes wish now pple wouldnt be so obsessed with sex and sexuality and the need to have those... life would so much more uncomplicated... and less prejudiced.. oops, my phrasing is very bad
ME: haha but i get it.. relax la... the world is like that
Darrell: not if we change it...
ME: but its up to everyone's choice rite?
Darrell: yea...
ME: we cant just exterminate all of them wat... its just virtually impossible to do so.. its like suddenly asking chicken not to lay eggs and defying laws of nature..
Darrell: haha good analogy
ME: lol thx...
Darrell: it's very appropriate...
It's like no one else has said that i make good analogies other than marcus abt my analogies in my kheexuan's survival guide since dunno when... Hmm... that's just a minor thing.... Lol... every small lil thing he says, it's like a crumble of the cake, so insignificant to others yet so life-saving to those starving in some lands of a third world country... so precious... so treasured...
Darrell: to tell the truth right, you're the happiest among us...
ME: Huh? I dun geddit...
Darrell: as in you got everything there
ME: yea i am sorta the 'happiest' in superficial sense
Darrell: your grades are good, your fashion sense is good, your style is good, your attitude is excellent, your behaviour is great... you're very in place.. where as the 3 of us: jianyi, suayu, and I all have huge obstacles that have threatened our mentalities toward life...
ME: sua's grades are great, fashion sense so-so, excellent attitude and have better behaviour wat..
Darrell: but it's just different, khee xuan, it just is.
*gasps*
(the following part I dunno whether I should write it down, but I guess I'd put it down anyway... it may serve as a very impt self-reflective lesson to jianyi... )
Darrell's analysis: [no hard feelings meant k?]: he was the person we cared for and cared about... we neglected to teach him to care for others... i think in a sense we saw him as the last and necessary piece fo complete our frenship circle.. he was the most "normal" in a "normal" sense, not like you are "normal" in a "fantas" sense..
ME: eh ok...
Darrell: and so he tagged along with all of us listening to our woes and listening to us solve our woes... and then suddenly.. he encountered a turning point... and we are all lost... like all our roles reversed...
ME: But he dusen want us to meddle in his life!
Darrell: no, he wants support.... none of us has given him that openly and whole heartedly... suayu was uncomfortable but he kept quiet.. he hates gays, becos (to put it very very bluntly) "gay fags' are unpolitical and abnormal... i was darn shocked and couldnt conduct proper conversations with him.. i think he was kinda sad..
ME: omg u couldn't? i was guilty of shunning him subtlely in the first few days... but i grew to accept him.. nvrtheless, this caught me like a huge tsunami.. and i wasnt prepared for it.. as in i already noe that he has this mask put on since dunno when but i just refuse or dared not to accept wats behind the mask... like the phantom or watever.. i dint watch the movie
Darrell: u shld
ME: 've been smsing him yesterday alot abt this issue and all.. we're still good frenz no doubt abt it.. even tho even i aint sure myself if i did or didnt support him whole-heartedly..
Darrell: i almost cried, i tell u when i first knew that...
ME: omg i dint.. i was just plain apalled that he finally let loose like a tsunami... u noe when it retreats, twice comes back and wash u away?
Darrell: ya.. but now it's like he's gone overboard...all that listening to us has completely reversed itself into a "you listen to me"..
ME: the aftermaths and afterquakes of earthquakes can sometimes be worse than the actual quake itself darrell.. that's wats happening yea noe...
ME: hmm i can equate all this to geog.. not bad at all.. can do ACE... loll.. but i dun tink he applied that 'u listen to me' on me yet..
Darrell: no, as in not forced it, just did it naturally, out of pure reaction...
Hmm... Jianyi is still alrite la... I dun think that things have gotten to that stage yet... Fortunately that is...
Last but not least, abt me!
Darrell: for you... i dunno, i think you're going through adolescence very normally.. watcha think?
ME: hmmm.. in diff factors yea.. i am at the stage of adapting, parents rebelling and all.. like an 'average' teen.. but there's no average or ordinary thing at all.. everyone adapts to it different. there's nth to compare .. and nth to be termed as 'naturally' or 'normally' rite?
Darrell: i think that that's definitely true, but from what i've observed you def seem to be going quite well... :) actually, i think you really are going to be someone someday.. it's your life dream!
ME: hmm.. i certainly hope so
Darrell: no prob...just work towards it and be yourself....
ME: i am afraid i just let opportunities slip past me without noticing it... and my parents dun support me going into the 'music' industry...
Darrell: but they're not exactly against it, khee xuan... i think you just have to show them it's what you really want and stuff and i'm sure they'll understand..
ME: and also, i aint even sure if i can make it myself.. its like i aint confident of my voice and all..
Darrell: Just be yourself and u can do it...
Thanks for that encouragement Darrell... It really helps... =D
Quote of the day:
ME: sometimes i wonder how can a complex person like u treat such a nitwit simpleton like me as a good friend? it just aint right isnt it?
Darrell: no, khee xuan, a friend is a friend when the two can get together, can be concerned, can respect, can love, can care for, can talk to, can make other friends with.. friends just are...that's the miracle of the universe..
Anyway... Just talked to christina and all.. haha, she's such a cool sister seriously... lol... still have a lot of things to know abt each other... and i toked to jy and yam before i watched apprentice haha they are still so funny and all... hmm.. i always had this impression that yam was a mugger lor... in fact, i am more muggerish den him.. he's still working on his hist essay and all.... lol... and teyah got all 3M and 3Oers killed with her killer maths worksheets! poor thingo mungos... just had a dload spree of AI songs last nite.. gosh, everyone shld listen to kelly's breakaway VH1 version and briana davis' phantom of the opera where she reached a top C (one octave and one note higher than my strainiest non falsetto note and she made it sound so effortless) and my fave song atm 'before your love' by kelly clarkson at the links below:
PhAAAAAAANtom of the opera!
Breakaway Acoustic Version
Before your Love
Signing off,
KX
2/06/2005 11:02:00 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Chapter 4: How inferior/alike/superior you are when compared to Khee Xuan?
Hmm... It's been a long time since I published the third issue of this guide. Below is yet another quiz to compare your alikeability with Khee Xuan which leads to the analysis of how Khee Xuan might and will mock you. His mocking is second deadliest way of annoying you other than the singing factor as seen from the issue since dunno when.. Nevertheless, there are various ways to turn the tables around back at him but first, you shall and must complete this simple quiz:
Instructions: Click on the comments box at the bottom of this blog post and shift it to one corner. Then scroll down and do the quiz, typing the question code then hyphen then your answer. Easy? Begin the quiz now!
2/05/2005 08:34:00 PM
Enjoy the quiz! The quiz consists of questions of different categories and all short open ended questions... Answer them in the comments pop-up with the question no.s and then your answer. Have fun!
Sports
S1. What did you get for NAPFA last year?
S2. How many pull-ups (inclined) and chin-ups can you do?
S3. What's your fastest timing for 2.4km run?
S4. Do you like soccer in general? If yes, do you like to play soccer?
S5. Which three sports do you usually play?
Music
M1. Do you like to listen to music? If yes, which genre do you love most?
M2. Do you like to sing?
M3. Do you sing on pitch? Real subjective question man...
M4. Who's your favourite singer? Name 3.
M5. Fave song at the moment?
M6. Your idol? Diff from your singer...
M7. Do you like Kelly clarkson?
M8. Has anyone said anything positive about your singing before?
Academics
A1. What's your MSG last year?
A2. What's the highest MSG you've achieved ever?
A3. Favourite subject?
A4. How many days before do you mug before an exam?
A5. What are you more inclined to be called as? A mugger or a slacker?
Others
O1. Are you a PRC or M'sian?
O2. Are you a homosexual?
O3. What kind of house do you live in?
O4. What is your CCA?
O5. Cool gang, Immature clique, Capteh frenzies, Canoeist club, Outcast.. Which clique are you most likely to exist in?
O6. Describe your fashion sense.
O7. If you are still doing this quiz and still getting all so excited, tell me the reason why please.
That's all folks! The analysis of your alikeability will be posted in due time! Cya!
Signing off,
GW
2/05/2005 07:44:00 PM
